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[..and I hold on for all you need that's all we need to say..] (GGD)

[ ..I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me..] (MB20)

Quien iba a decir que iban a ser esas dos bandas.. esas que tanto gustan, que tanto significan y que tanto unieron las que me iban a dar el pie para este post. Que iban a ser esas letras las que expresen mejor que nadie lo que siento en este momento. Aunque me queda corto.. me queda muy corto.

Lamentablemente hoy no puedo postear que todo mejoro, como quise imaginarme en mi ultimo post. Todavia sigue adentro mio esa sensacion de final.. y cada vez esta mas justificada. Todavia sigo esperando.. pero por eso no puedo echarle la culpa a nadie, porque espero por eleccion propia. Y la pregunta es: porque espero? Sera porque no me hago la idea de que todo termine tan pronto.. o que como dice Rob Thomas "no pense que te ibas a cansar de mi..". Sera porque tengo bien claro lo que quiero y como te dije ayer soy una persona que lucha hasta el final, hasta darse la cabeza tres veces contra la pared y entender que no hay otra solucion que rendirse.

Pero hasta ese momento voy a volverme loca pensando una solucion posible. Ojala dependiera de mi.. seria mas sencillo. Pero guste o no la decision es tuya. Yo solo te puedo dar certezas propias.. pero son las tuyas las que tenes que buscar vos. Yo ya te di las mias, y las sabes de memoria. Sabe que como dicen los dolls yo voy a esperar. Porque creo que vale la pena. Porque SE que vale la pena. Y porque ya no me hago la idea de mi vida sin vos.

Pero en el fondo siempre lo supe: era demasiado bueno para ser verdad. Las coincidencias y el bluethoot. La musica y las opiniones compartidas. La risa y las caricias. Todo era demasiado... bueno. Y todo lo bueno termina. Nos guste o no.

Por eso aca estoy, esperando. Y aca me voy a quedar.. buscandole una salida a todo esto.. y remandola, sola si hace falta, hasta que te des cuenta de lo que queres. Hasta recibir la respuesta que deseo o teminar chocandome contra una pared.

Te quiero.. y mucho..

Seguro hay mucho mas para decir... pero ahora no me sale.

{D#16!}


"Leave"

It's amazing
How you make your face just like a wall
How you take your heart and turn it off
How I turn my head and lose it all

It's unnerving
How just one move puts me by myself
There you go just trusting someone else
Now I know I put us both through hell

I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm now saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me

But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out

It's aggravating
How you threw me on and you tore me out
How your good intentions turn to doubt
The way you needed time to sort it out

I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me
I'm now saying we ever had the right to hold on
I just didn't wanna let it get away from me

But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out

The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out

I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong
I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me

But if that's how it's gonna leave
Straight out from underneath
Then we'll see who's sorry now
If that's how it's gonna stand, when
You know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out

Tell me is that how it's going to end
When you know you've been depending on
The one you're leaving now
And the one you're leaving out

The one you're leaving now
The one you're leaving out