Sitting, Waiting, Wishing...

"Now I was sitting waiting wishing
That you believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs
But Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning loving somebody don't make them love you.."

Here I am... waiting. For an aswer, a sign, something... something to take this feeling from me. This feeling of insecurity, this nerviousness (?), this axienty... A word, an e-mail, a messaje, something.. as little as can be... but something at last. Because this world that I'm living is just.. horrible! I need an ending, I need your word, I need your voice telling me that it's over. Yes, that voice I like so much.. that voice I hear everywhere I go.. Is that voice I need to hear to let go.. Because it's so hard to let go.. because you know I will continue to fight until the end but... where is this end? Is where you or where I put it? Because if it is where I put it, then you know we will never have one. But if it is where you put it then maybe we'd already reach it and I don't know. So I need you to tell me we'd reach that point where there is no turning back, where it's all or nothing.. where we can put a stop at it. Because I need a sign to know if it is worthless or no. But I wonder... why do I keep feeling that we didn't reach that point yet? Why am I feeling that you miss me too? Why can't I feel the end? I need a last favour from you... I need you to tell me to stop. To stop believing, to stop wondering, to stop fighting.. because I will continue to do it until I crash for a dozen time.. And here I am, listening now to our radio, to a song that not so far away you dedicate to me. Is that a message from destiny? It keeps saying "I'll be there, hold you tight to me"... should I believe it? Why does life keep playing these games with me? I need to know... and I need it NOW. I need your aswer... the same one that I asked you not so far ago.... "you're leaving or you're gonna stay?"

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Se que no es lo mismo en castellano que en ingles. Que es como si no lo dijera del todo.. pero asi me salio. Sigo esperando... siempre esperando...

Me voy a laburar.

Feliz Navidad para todos! =)

Ce!*

(("cuentale a tu corazon que existe siempre una razon escondida en cada gesto.."))